This is 28

May 13, 2015

This is 28! No really it is, today is my 28th birthday. I know most people save their 30th birthday to divulge all their life's realizations, but 28 somehow feels like 40 in a lot of ways for me. So I am meeting in the middle. When Chris asked me what I wanted for my birthday I said "just a picture. A picture of our life, right here, right now" and that was that. We loaded in the car...drove a few miles and took a picture of everyone. Don't mind the fact that I stole Avalon's birthday balloons. She didn't even notice. 

But, 28. More importantly I have been out of high school for ten years. If you would have told me that this is what my life would look like in ten years, I would have laughed in your face (as any 18 year old would). I am pretty sure I was sitting with my mom telling her that all I wanted for high school graduation was to get my tubes tied. Truly another story for another time, but I didn't want kids. I didn't even want to ever get married. I thought of myself as someone very content with being alone. I was fiercely independent, and I didn't want someone to interfere with that. I had these grand ideas of going off to college, being on my own, getting a job and never looking back. Still with this idea of having my horses and living a life of me time. 

Ten years ago I met a boy. I found out what love really meant. My ideas of marriage being this awful thing very quickly disappeared. We couldn't wait to get married, time wasn't on our side in our minds. Deployment was on the horizon. Years ago I was experimenting with different hair colors. My style was all over the place. I was incredibly opinionated, and not so very humble. I had a great job and spent money like a crazy person. I drove a Mercedes, Chris had a motorcycle. We didn't own any pots and pans because who was cooking? We talked about kids...four kids. We never knew when that was going to happen. A couple years and a few moves later and my whole world changed. Ace was born and I realized that suddenly I had a purpose in life. Maybe I should open a savings account. We should possibly sell that motorcycle, that we would hop on with no helmets and drive way too fast up the hills of Scottsdale. And we did. 

One kid after another, one move after another, one more time being separated for this reason and that. One more year would bring me closer to this. To that picture up there. To finding myself in the greatest promotion life could give me. To being a mom, which honestly if you asked anyone who knew me growing up would say, call CPS because Kelsey should never have a child. To loving these people so deeply that it hurts. To watching my body expand and be molded into what it is today. To being comfortable in my own skin. To valuing the difference of opinions and learning and growing from the people around me. To loss and heartache. To learning to keep people around me who only bring in the positive, because I have the crazy part on lock. To not having it all figured out, and not knowing where the future will take us. 

Ten years ago I was unhappy. 

At 28 I can truly say I am happy. I am a mom to four (!!!) wild and amazing kids. I am a wife to the only man that could possibly want to put up with my tornado of insanity all day everyday. I am a daughter who now fully understands the sacrifice and selfless act of parenting. I am a woman with stretch marks, varicose veins, dark spots, and wrinkles. I drive a minivan with more cup holders than one knows what to do with, and five pounds of goldfish on the floor. I am me....and this is 28. 

20 comments:

  1. 28 looks amazing on you and isn't it wonderful to know that your life is your version of perfect? Happy birthday

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    1. Absolutely!! Such a good feeling :)

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  2. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I can emphasize with your feelings <3

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  3. Happy birthday!!! I'm 28 also and I say the exact same thing. NO KIDS! Now here I am 4 kids later, and so incredibly happy it's turned out how it has! Also won't it be so awesome once they all graduate we will still be so young! Lol

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  4. I LOVE THIS! What a great picture too! And happy happy birthday!!!! It's amazing what or who we once thought we were isn't even close. But tubes tied? I call bluff. ;) have a great fantastic tornadoey kind of day!!!!

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  5. This is beautiful!!! I love being 31! I feel like this is the time when women truly kinda figure themselves out. I keep hearing it only keeps getting better and I am so excited for it! You are such a beautiful mama inside and out! I hope 28 is good to you! :)

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    1. Thank you Hana for this sweet comment!!

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  6. Happy birthday! 28 looks great on you :)

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  7. 28 looks great on you! I'm actually really excited to turn 30 in a few months, I feel like it's going to be the best year of my life. Wishing you a very very Happy Birthday!!

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  8. Happy Birthday to you! That picture is a perfect present to commemorate the day!

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  9. Happy happy birthday! I hope you guys are getting some nice spring weather up there :)

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    1. Thank you!! Today is a little gloomy, but it has been beautiful!!

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  10. Okay Kelsey I'm sure you already know this but I have to say it anyway....I LOVE THIS!!! Happy birthday gorgeous lady!!!!! I am so glad that you are so amazingly happy and your life has turned into you're little slice of heaven on earth!

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  11. This post is fantastic!! I'm so happy for you and hope you had the most amazing birthday yet! I turn 28 at the end of the month too! (:

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  12. Friend, you are beautiful! I am so happy to read your happiness and I hope it was the best birthday ever! If the photo is any inclination, 28 will be the best year yet--such a stunning family!

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